Past

Being scared of the past because of the future makes no sense, but in my case make a great deal in my life. Ive always into fortune tellers, and horoscopes, so when looking on the internet for horoscopes and stuff, i came across a website. So now rndomly i have a woman email me telling me that she found somethin interesting, or theres going to be an important transit going to happen. But this time her words stung me deep in the soul, this time she began talking about my past lifes. She gave no details, but something burned in my mind. She said that in my past lifes i had many heartbreaks and that i was hurt quite a lot. And that these things are subconsciously holding me back in this life to prevent being hurt. But slowly these problems are goin to take over. I began to wonder myself if any of these things were true, and they were. Im constantly havin nightmares of the same 3 dreams of my death, but from years far ahead of now. I put barrier around my heart so that if the pain comes ill push it out. I try my hardest not to show weakness. And I cant share my feelings with anyone.